Boring?

My friend Heather's comments to my last post got me thinking ... do we all eventually become "boring?" I mean there are just some people in this world who really are boring from the start. Who live their whole life in one town, surrounded by the same people and get sweaty palms just thinking about going somewhere new. Me? Nope - left the hometown at age 18 and never looked back. Traveled, did crazy things, met interesting people, wasn't afraid to take a chance and have very few regrets. Maybe that's why I'm finally growing comfortable in my own skin and with the day-to-day routine of my life. I had the chance to get out, spread my wings and find out more about the person I'm meant to be.

Until fairly recently I struggled with the urge to point my car in one direction or another and just keep driving. I had to fight an internal battle and remind myself that life really is about mortgages, groceries, a job, the mundane. Maybe this is just the steady line of my life...no real peaks or valleys, just a nice hum. I try not to project into the future too far...okay, I admit I am projecting a bit into the future to June 2008 when we are done, done, done with child support, but that's just because I have a five year plan to stay financially fit and find a job that allows me to be home with Kyle during the precarious middle school years. But always waiting to get to the "when" can be a real roadblock. I have an acquaintance who is living her life waiting for the when - "when we pay off the Toyota," "when the kids are older," "when I win the lottery." She's just not happy being in the here and now - enjoying that steady hum. She wears me out and I leave our lunches feeling less than great.

But hey, I still listen to Justin Timberlake, watch stupid, funny movies and television and love being home with the family instead of out at the bars or visiting some exotic locale...of course I would really love a magazine and catalog night with dear Heather!!!!